when i grow up

When I Grow Up, I Want to Be: Proud of Myself

In my kindergarten class, like many others, our teachers handed out a paper that read “When I grow up, I want to be _____.” We were tasked with filling out the form and probably coloring it, or something. I don’t quite remember this kindergarten exercise, but my parents have told me about it many times. On Back to School Night, when they came into my … Continue reading When I Grow Up, I Want to Be: Proud of Myself

wisdom tooth surgery

Millennial’s First Surgery

I just had my wisdom teeth removed last week, and it was the first surgery I’ve ever had done. Leading up to it, I was a nervous wreck. I had never been under anesthesia before, and I was worried about how my body would react to it. As someone with some deep-rooted emetophobia (fear of vomiting) and a history of family members being sensitive to … Continue reading Millennial’s First Surgery

rethinking my relationship with food

Rethinking My Relationship with Food

When I was a kid, the adults in my life gave me a lot of preconceived notions about food. Don’t get me wrong. They were trying to teach me how to live a more healthy life, but I’ve still had to unlearn these lessons as I got older and gained more control over my eating habits. A lot of these lessons revolved around moderation because, … Continue reading Rethinking My Relationship with Food

i want it now

I Want It NOW!

I’ve recently become aware that I have missed a crucial part of my mental development from child to adult. As children, we need to learn to have impulse control and the benefits of delayed gratification. As an adult Renata, apparently, this development was not part of my evolution. I also never grew above 5 feet, so maybe they’re related… My therapist used to talk about … Continue reading I Want It NOW!